Mel is a dumb bitch

Sam: "Mel is a DUMB BITCH"

Thanks a lot. I just realized that too and you are completely justified in saying so. Why? Cause for a GP paper, Sam asked me for the answer to one vocab question of which I gave him another similar word close to my answer. And guess what? The irony. He got it right and I got my answer wrong LOL!

No arguments there. I am a dumb bitch.
Stupid Sam's friend. It's all your fault.
May turtles knaw on your toenails at night wahahha!

Here's another unintelligent conversation with my dear friend Alicia who I love to bits and pieces cause she's such an awesome individual: (keep those sides shaved girl!)


Aunt Agony is looking for Apollo. says:
so how's school bodoh.

Incest? How Amusing. ticktockticktockticktock... we've only got 4 minutes to save the world. says:
sucks balls man.
big time.
im so fucking busy.
life = no life at the moment.

i think i'm better off as a shepherd girl
sheep give better entertainment =.=
maybe i could organize them into a bleating choir or something

Aunt Agony is looking for Apollo. says:
HAHA

Incest? How Amusing. ticktockticktockticktock... we've only got 4 minutes to save the world. says:
beats listening to teachers everyday and getting crushed by the amount of work

Aunt Agony is looking for Apollo. says:
that'll be mighty cool
true ah.

Incest? How Amusing. ticktockticktockticktock... we've only got 4 minutes to save the world. says:
hm yeah but chances are, my hand will prob get chewed off

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Aunt Agony is looking for Apollo. says:
i'm better off catching flies with my ass.

Incest? How Amusing. ticktockticktockticktock... we've only got 4 minutes to save the world. says:
GLAMOUR SHOTS!
HAHAHAHAHA
CATCHING FLIES WITH UR ASS

i'd pay to watch that
shld be interesting

Aunt Agony is looking for Apollo. says:
HAHAHA

Incest? How Amusing. ticktockticktockticktock... we've only got 4 minutes to save the world. says:
the NEW and IMPROVED venus asstrap~

Aunt Agony is looking for Apollo. says:
you get your herd of sheep i'll get flies with my ass.
we can be the sheepass duo.

Incest? How Amusing. ticktockticktockticktock... we've only got 4 minutes to save the world. says:
ok set
sweet =D

Aunt Agony is looking for Apollo. says:
HAHA
venus asstrap.

Incest? How Amusing. ticktockticktockticktock... we've only got 4 minutes to save the world. says:
and my sheep can eat the flies from ur ass



Hurrah for unintelligent conversations !!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!! THE FACIAL LADY SHAVED OFF HALF MY EYEBROWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND I HAVE FREAKING HISTORY NIGHT ON TUESDAY SOME MORE WA LAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY EYEBROWS LOOK DETACHED FROM MY EYES LAAAAA OMGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

Thurs: Worth a laugh.

Econs lecture and lit lecture: The Pau didn't pay PUB or something cause it was a total blackout. Had to use my phone light to write during lit lecture and couldn't see a single shit for econs.

Mr Glascow: "Oh good now I won't have to see all your ugly faces. Muahahaha"

In the canteen, there was also a blackout for a few seconds.

Later when the lights came on halfway during lit lecture, I felt extremely disorientated and kind of giddy for the rest of the day. I suppose thats how vampires would feel, huh? Talk about fish out of water.

Other funny moments at econs: Mr Leong was talking about the answers for essay and used the analogy of 2 guys. One rich and handsome, the other kind, fit and tall. Then Ming Xuan came in at that time and Mr Leong was like "Ah! Good timing! Okay class you see ar... *looks at the board* rich ar? okok la.. handsome? okay also la... kind?.. erm... maybe... fit? definitely... tall?...*deliberate pause* .. no la" Wa lao the whole class burst out laughing cause we were all expecting it!

In Hist tutorial: Luo Er: "Oh! 15 marks (upon 25) is a pass???"

and later...

Ms Soh: "EVERYBODY SHHH!!! LUO ER IS TALKING!"
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Dinesh: "Ms Soh will you invite me to your wedding?"
Ms Soh: "Of course not Dinesh. You've been BLACKlisted!"

Friday: Felt terrible. Didn't go school but went for dance later. Super pressurising. Ugh. Shall not elaborate on that further.

Oh, and Ah Ma went hospital cause she wanted to... sigh. I really think she's going a bit senile la.

Today: Had fun with the dancers at 9.30am in the morning till 1pm. Dancers are the craziest people around! (:
But the thing is... it was REALLY VERY HUMID!!!!

Wtfffff.

Even now as I'm typing this I'm sweating like mad laaaa!!! And dad's sick so we can't use the aircon. I don't really mind the aircon part but I do hope he gets better soon. Nothing is weirder than a doctor who becomes the patient.

After hanging around with the dancers to complete the video, I went to meet TheBoy.. just erm.. an hour late... I'M SO SORRY!!! Sigh... So I made it up to him by treating to lunch at my favourite rice ball shop in novena square 2! =D

Then we went home and watched the whole series of Zombie Loan and the movie Alvin and the Chipmunks wahahahaha!!! Stupid boy you're distracting to watch anime with ><"

Thought of the day: Is it human to be spiteful? I know its obviously wrong and darn right unfilial and disrespectful but does the ostracism of being an unwanted child justify this? I think things would have been soooo different if only I were born male...Gah.

Quote of the day: In the end, we're only that human.

P.s: Haven't done lit proposal...Am so fucking screwed. Really havent had the motivation or inspiration to write up this bloody script .. sigh..

and miles to go before I sleep

10 minutes to dance meeting. I feel loved!

Thanks to Jaz for cheering me up and thanks to anastacia for not judging me and having faith in me - "we only got one watch" haha! You're awesome (:

Past few days have been really hectic but I won't bore with the lengthy details. They'd be summarised with these few words:

History Research Assignment. Coffee. History Research Assignment. Mocha Frappacino. History Research Assignment. Green Tea Frappacino. Busy. Busy, busy busy. Ugh.

But meeting up with Rachel has been nice! We've been cam-whoring and coffee boozing like mad. I will upload the photos soon! Oh, and she's been helping me with the History Night placards too! =D

And more to do..

Lit night script. Lit night filming. Lit night video. New movie maker (if I can afford it). History tutorial outline. Study econs.

6 minutes.

"And more to go before I sleep..
And more to go before I sleep.."

Sam's been upset lately so cheer up okay! Don't let her get to you! You know you're awesome so be the diva you are! And if we get stressed up, we can always start growing a vagina on our foreheads hehhhh. (:

4 minutes.

I heard the saxophone yesterday playing "Fly Me to the Moon" at assembly for band concert announcement. Wow. The whole school was freaking silent. The moment would have been perfect if not for the fact that it was spoilt by something that will inevitably have lots of reprecussions for me... sigh. But I guess, I can't do no shit about it. Just suck it up. I can do it.

Go me!

2 minutes.

And there's a group of retarded guys in the library behind me talking about blowjobs and sex. Hm.

Right.

Okay.

I think its time to go.

Oh, and if kim ever wants to propose to me, he's promised me he'll go learn how to play the Saxophone HEHEHEHE. I think I might just die laughing, though. Saxophone's new evolution: Fartophone!!! =D

-1 minutes.

Quote of the day: "Homosexuality is not contagious."

Snaps to jazreel!

To jaz:

I love you, bitch!
Thanks for listening to me while I make a mountain out of a molehill (:

And society sucks balls.

gothic?

The show Nightmare Before Christmas is depressing.

Sure, it's actually a happy love story in a very very dark way but somehow after watching it, it stirred depression. It's not really cause the show was dark, but rather, after looking at that 'unhappy' and 'dark' world, I look at our 'good' reality and realise we're so much darker.

The same went for Corpse's Bride just now.

Hell actually seems HAPPY.
MY GOD. And some crazy part of me that believes there's a life after death similar to that actually WANTS to go over there....whatever happened to the greatest fear of dying?!?!

"We desire for what we can't have"

Temptations are like chocolate. Wonderful to savour in the moment but it leaves you with a swirling guilt after that. And, not to mention, a load of extra calories too.

So I hereby proclaim that I shall stay away (and far away) from things that I cannot have! That list includes chocolate and many others! Cause well, its heck unhealthy. Mentally and physically.

And I think, after talking to Annabel, I've discovered the root of the problem. It's not so much the effect, but rather, its the cause.

Question: "So why don't you just give it up?"
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Answer: "I don't know."

Well now, I do. It's always been there just that I've underrated it or overlooked it.
There's still time to patch it up - there always is, as long as I still have the resolve.

So in the meantime, let's not forget these warm fluffy thoughts ya?


Quote of the day: " Don't worry, I'll see you on thursday, k? "


Thought of the day: SO much farking work to do by tomorrow. Hist Research assignment, Hist Outline, Econs question. Woo-hoo...

A tribute to CJ

I watched a video today.
It was entitled "A tribute to the memories in CJ".

As much as I hate going to school, I might actually miss CJ later... I guess it won't affect me so much on another ordinary school day but if affected me a lot cause I just had dance today.

And as tiring and demoralising as it is, dance is actually one of the fondest memories I have in CJ cause I have Anastacia, Pamela, Annabel and Natalie there... not only that but the euphoria you get when you've just executed a powerpacked move is just undescribable... haha and the gruelling training and the moodswings of Ryan are enjoyable too - in a really weird uncomprehensible way.

Its also noticeable that CJ's the only school where I could walk down a corridor and say hi to at least 2 people. The Arts faculty has some odd family bond from T1-T6 but odd as it is, it's effective! I got your back, you got mine (:

Thanks Matt for saving my butt by lending me your econs tutorial HAHA!

So,between me and CJ, it really is a love-hate relationship.

I wonder what will I miss the most when it's my turn to go..?

Divergence

There's two very different people, she said.

One is the Fatcat and the other is the "me".

With puzzled eyes she continued, "The Fatcat is like the stronger personality. She's retarded, conceited, materialistic, vain, selfish, manipulative, cruel, extremely judgemental and insensitive. People to her are just conveniences in life sometimes. She's the one that doesn't give a fuck about what people thinks about her but yet she's the one that wrecks havoc by being so bitchy and catty. She's not emotionally stable and has an eye for pretty boys. So, you either love her or hate her."

A pause.

"At other times, she's the anchor to sanity. Mind over heart, she's the voice of rationality - the godzilla figure in times of perile and the huge hammer to the back of the head when I'm selling myself out." Some uncomfortable shifting of the feet.

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And what about the other person?
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A chuckle. Nervous -- almost.

"Sometimes I don't know if she exists" she replied uneasily, "She's so weak. She's the person that gets bullied, tolerates all the shittiness around - only to end up in a mental breakdown later. Completely self-hating, she dwells into past memories, fantasies and daydreams to escape reality. But sometimes, she can go so deep into it, she gets lost and loses touch with reality - that's when reality collapses back onto her and its a vicious cycle of depression."


A bitterness, I sensed...


Then, she continued to elaborate, "But, this girl... she's more sentimental... which can be bad or good. Bad because she's too hung up about holding onto relationships - desperate, as if her life depended on it. Good because she's sensitive and soft-hearted. Well, at least, I think so."


A shrug.


"But you know, this girl... she's not very sociable. In fact, she's annoyingly anti-social. She doesn't know how to mix around. Its frustrating because she's the one that's around 90% of the time."

So... what's her name?


With a pretty shake of the head, she replied, "I don't know."


....Then who are you, actually?


Another shake.

"Why don't tell me, Fatcat?"


Quote of the day: "OMG"

Thought of the day: I felt so proud of myself when I walked the other way... and a little sad.

Fluff

For once in my life, I found school quite easy-going today!

Oh! And Mrs Sng didn't come for lit today. Everyone was like 'OMG' and for some unknown reason the whole banded class launched into a Mrs Sng impersonation competition! It was HILARIOUS!

Pretty-eyed boy(who I shall not name in case Mrs Sng decides to whizz by my blog. God knows what she does in her spare time. I don't wanna know.) in nazal voice complete with eye-rolling effect: "You're all so lazy!.... Sloth! One of the seven deadly sins!.... And you're all catholic or christian right!.... I hope god punishes all of you!"

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Man, you're hilarious. Had fun talking to you in Maths too!

Well, I got 1/25 for hypothesis maths test. Quite funny actually. I got 1 mark from one line. Hehh. No mathematician is ever going to want to marry me.

And as Matt says, 'Well, at least if you got a zero, the only way to go, is up!"

YEAH MAN! (:

Dance was really fun today (and nerve-wrecking!). The moment dance started, Xue Hui launched into audition mode (no idiot, not the game!) and broke us up into groups of 8 to audition for the Father Elephant item and the beginning of Whine up.

AND SWUAY SWUAY,

by some mysterious force unknown to me, Xue Hui felt compelled to drag me away from Anastacia, Annabel and Belle despite the agonizing look of 'HOOO-NOOOO' on my face and plonk me in the middle of the J3 group. It suddenly felt very suffocating.

Why?

Cause the j3s are bloody good at dancing and me dancing with them is like... its like grabbing a hippo from the zoo, making it stand on its hind legs, putting a chicken on its head and expecting it to dance gracefully to the "Sound of Music". Yeah, I stand out as the lousy one.

Mehhh. Shoooottttt meeeee.

Some more I'm the only idiot that starts off at the right side of the studio! The other J3s started off at the left so I suddenly feel the overbearing attention of the rest of the dance club boring into me, stabbing me with little critical evil eyes.

NoOOoOOooOoo!!!!

BUT. I got into Father elephant!!!! YEAHHHHH!!!!! I wanted that item!!!!! Well, even if Annabel calls it the 'goblin dance' I still like it. I should consider the occupation of Goblin if I don't get into University. *grin*

Quote of the day: "It looked like pyjamas"

Thought of the day: It's funny to see someone so dao, high-and-mighty face the ultimate rejection for what he/she is so proud of and resort to the last means of desperation which is called denial. *cough cough! Father elephant!* I know I'm evil but at least evil has a bitchy attitude.

stop.

I need to stop this obsession before it bleeds me dry.

'like a vein that's been closed'

Quote of the day: "You can't poke Jason cause you'll sink all the way in" said by Sam or by Jason himself (can't remember)

Thought of the day: Short guys all have sparkling eyes, killer smiles and nice biceps (as agreed by Rachel) but it's sad when they have to ask you to bend down to kiss you on your wedding day!

oh resign

Your shirt untucked

Gave me such a rush

Updates from sat: I went out for lunch with Rachel and we caught up! Girl, I miss you!!! Remember our study date on sunday okay! <3

After going church with Rachel, I headed to meet Jit and Van. From there, we went to mount alvernia intending to visit Astrid but guess what!? She was discharged already.

ZOMG.

Luckily her house was near so we walked to Bradell View and paid her a visit. And of course, Jit was suan-ed by me and Vanessa allll the wayyy~~~wahahahha you're so fun to suan!!

Oh, and Jit got stuck in the toilet. HAHA! (:

Stupid jit. Go whack your imaginary shuttle cocks la! Just don't hit the wrong one ;)

We all know you're gay.

Hmmm.. We didn't spend much time in Astrid's house cause we had to go meet Aloysius at toa payoh. From there, Jit went home and we went to prata house instead where we met Belmond and Patrick. Crapped some more, crap and more crap.

Oh, and the service at the prata house sucked so bad. They just kept IGNORING US despite our efforts of ridiculously flapping our hands about. Grrr. I'll bring a SKII whitening gun there one day and see whether you ignore me.

Quotes from the table:

Bel: "Waaa I'm DAMN HUNGRY"

Me: "OKAY!! LET'S ORDER EVERYTHING ON THE MENU!"

(silence)

Them: "Sasa, you treating ar?"

Me: "no way! Anyway I can't eat so much! What do you think I am!?!?"

(silence)

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Aloy: "Pig."


Stupid aloy. I'll hang pig head at your doorstep then you know rar!




After that, hugged everyone goodbye and headed home a very happy girl =)

I love u guys!!!!

( Though I wish more could have made it... )


Updates from yesterday: Went out to study with Bryan. Overdosed myself with caffeine. Met Lucile and some girls from CJ at United Square Starbucks.


Omg wait, I must proclaim something: UNITED SQUARE STARBUCKS IS THE BEST PLACE TO STUDY!!!!


Phew... glad I got that out of my system. Hmm yeah. After that we had dinner at Genki Sushi and lamented on how broke we both were. Bryan and I shall form the Poor People's Club!!! After eating, went back to studying and went home at 9.30pm.


Studying moments:

(a certain group of people who-I-shall-not-name-in-case-I-get-accused-of-racism making a lot of noise)

Bryan: Wa lao eh.. fucking noisy! Bloody (race censored)

Me: Shhh just tolerate them. It's a rare sight to see them in Starbucks. The only time you ever get to see them is only behind the counter.




( a couple opposite us flirting and PDA-ing like nobody's business)

Bryan and me: *super distracted*

Bryan: I wish they'd get a fucking room..

Me: I don't think they can that's why they're here in Starbucks. Hotel 81 owner probably ran away when he saw their face

Bryan: Yeah man. The girl's bloody gravel-faced.

Me: *burst out laughing*




Hooray for bitchiness! Sam, its all your fault.


Heh, I can imagine Vig appearing next to me and going: "Mel, you horrible person." in his usual I'm-trying-to-be-insultive-and-mean-but-I-cannot-come-up-with-anything-more-hurtful-than-the-word-horrible tone




Today's update:

School as usual.
Got screwed for not having history file.
Found out Wilson fainted at blood donation drive HAHA!
Saw the same pair of ugly shoes at the Muslim stall (it's finally been washed HOMG)
Got poked by Patrick at the Muslim stall. Stupid Patrick. I'll sell you to China and they'll cook you in one of their street stalls!


Oh! And its Luo Er's birthday today! Luo er, happy birthday to you! Or rather, in vig's own language, happy BURDDAY! =D



And the chocolate cake which Sam bought from breadtalk is the sex. Everyone was moaning like sick retards LOL.


Quote of the day: Don't cry till its over (I'm promising myself that)

Thought of the day: If I were born a guy, how many people would bash me up? Probably lots. Hehh.

Get up and go!

I need you,
right here and forever
stay right here with me

It's time to get up and go!
From today onwards, I'm gonna allocate myself certain rules.
Based on a per week quota:

Online gaming: 0 hours
Computer usage: Only allowed to access friendster, colac and email. Any other nonsense limited to 7 hours ( 1 hr per day )
PSP/Dslite: Allowed for travelling entertainment. Other than that, 7 hours per week too!
Studying: MINIMUM 4 hours per day
Movie-ing, tv-ing: 7 hours per week

Therefore, effectively, I should only be resting for: 3 hours per day. and almost 3/4 a day per week!

200 days to A levels.
let's go!

and a revelation... I'm gonna be 20 in 2 years...

OMG. I WON'T BE A TEENAGER ANYMORE.

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WTF!!!!!

Quote of the day: "Pretty girl, got pretty face!"

Thought of the day: I'm getting fat. Seriously.

Its the END OF THE WORLD.

OH MY GOD!!!

This is not fucking happening!!!! I'm in such total complete fucking shock I don't know where to fucking start!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GOT A FOR PROJECT WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

man, this has GOT to be the biggest joke of the century.
And what's so shocking about getting A?

Well, my whole group :
1) was always one of the latest to hand up stuff

2) and its usually shitty last minute work
( and trust me on shitty and last minute. E.g. If its due on tuesday, we'll do it on tuesday during break. Yeah. In 30 minutes. Other groups take like a whole day to slowly validate and perfect their piece )

3) ALWAYS talk and do other stuff during PW periods
( we NEVER really utilised even ONE pw period. Every pw period = me and choy nam talking about sadistic stuff and/or tormenting jason, jason will be tormented by us and/or watching videos and ah pai will be sleeping and/or joking around with dinesh )

4) 3 of us (jason, me and nam) did the SAME material for Evaluation of Material
( which is the biggest SIN in PW EOM submission. It's liable to pull EVERYONE'S GRADES DOWN to like, a C cause the main purpose of EOM is to evaluate material that would contribute to your project so its kinda useless if we all evaluate the SAME MATERIAL )

5) did not bother doing up signboards and props like the other groups did
( I told you, we're slackers )

6) eventually bo-chuped and gave up on PW in the end
( we just wanted to get Oral Presentation done and over with )

7) and usually less than 20% get an A in Singapore
( yeah, we're fighting with the academic powerhouses like RJ and VJ )

Ooooh yeah. And trust me when I say that we really thought we'll only get a C or if we're lucky, a B each.

Badapapapa~ I'm loving it!

I guess all the squabbels and procrastination was worth it.
Coming close to a CJC Battle Royal was worth it, too. YAYYYY!!!!!

Updates from yesterday: Astrid's in hospital cause of appendicitis so I went to visit her after zao-ing PE and meeting up with my babes! Poor girl, please take care and recover fast!!! I wanna have gossip and girl time with you in school (:


Quote of the day: "OMG, BUUURN!!!"

Thought of the day: Saying "I don't want to live" doesn't mean "I wanna die"

Noma Noma yay

I've been sick for 3 days with food poisoning/stomach flu - I can't decide which is it but I've gone to the toilet so many times that I can give a name to every tile in the bathroom.

Though I've been wasting a lot of time at home, I've been given the opportunity to think: slowly without any outside influences interrupting my chain of thought...and I realised I take everything for granted.

My friends, my family, my life.

Flipping through old photos and old saved messages, I feel kind of fortunate. And I think I'm no longer confused. I've been focusing so much on the misery around me that I've failed to see the little nitty gritty things that have always been right in front of me.

'you got stamp on your eye ah..' - quote from Mr Weirdo many years ago.

So, yes Mr Weirdo, despite your quote being totally out of context in this case, I'm still going to wake up. Hold on to what I have and cherish the future.

Oh, and if anything DOES HAPPEN, I'd rather not think about it now. (though, quite impossible, really)

AAAAA and there's dance later !!!!


Quote of the day: ' OoO you touched my talala~ MmM my dingdingdong~'


Video of the day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QlXdj-Yo5Ho


Thought of the day: She looked so happy in the wedding photo; I wonder if they ever loved? I'd like to think so but then again the thought of it being so has become so remotely weird and awkward.

denial

Something happened today to one of my bitches.

And I think,

I don't know whether to feel envious.

Envious, cause she's slowly getting a clearer picture of a kind of guy she would like.
Envious, cause through all this setbacks, when she finally meets the guy of her dreams, she'd instantly know it.
Envious, cause its made her a lot stronger than I am.

Girl, sometimes being in one too long can cloud our vision. I think both you and I can testify for that ;)

Anyways, just hang in there. I promise I'll totally bash him up when he gets his flat ass back onto Singapore soil!!!!

I'll destroy any of his remaining flower prints - definitely.

posts from the sick bed

Never, eat a spoilt california handroll.

No matter how tempting and delicious it looks. Someone please, harness my animalistic instincts otherwise I'm just gonna keep eating spoilt food and skipping school.

One love one shot
It's all we ever got
Girl you got me started
Now I'm not gonna stop

Now slide along side yeah baby that's right
I'm gonna show you the time of your life
Oh girly girly come and dance with me
Move that naughty body come close to me
Now slide along side yeah baby that's right
I'm gonna show you the time of your life

This is it love
It's what dreams are made of
But its still up to us to feel the rush
To pursue all the things only Gods can touch
I wanna meet the odds with royal flush
To fall
I gave my all
But it wasn't enough
I'm never giving up I found life
So I've gotta live it up

And life is too short for war
What can I say to show theres more
With people slammin doors in my face and what for
That aint the way to gain plays
By making the same mistake day after day
I gotta slide man get away the smile on my face its a sunny day girls and drinks and more drinks
Come to think
For such a big place its a small world
For such a rat race i still got faith
And anything goes still I got to say life has its ups and downs but I love it anyway

One love one shot
It's all we ever got
Girl you got me started
Now I'm not gonna stop

Now slide along side yeah baby that's right
I'm gonna show you the time of your life
Oh girly girly come and dance with me
Move that naughty body come close to me
Now slide along side yeah baby that's right
I'm gonna show you the time of your life

Hey pretty girl pretty girl its on
We gonna dance like boogie come on
Do it all night long
Let it go ain't no holding back now
Gotta slide pretty baby that's right
There's nothing I can't do with you by my side
There's nowhere we can go that we wouldn't show 'em up

I gotta an appetite for destruction
Livin life that's right
She's daddy's little angel but she wasn't last night
Now these are the breaks yeah baby that's right
Now I got you, yeah I got you baby
I want your body and you drive me crazy
It's hard to resist such a sexy lady
Come with me you'll have the time of your life
You want to set the mood I guess the timing is right
And it takes two to make a thing go right
But what's it gonna take to take you home tonight

Sliiiiiidddddeeee...

Oh Woah
One love one shot
It's all we ever got
Girl you got me started
Now I'm not gonna stop

Now slide along side yeah baby that's right
I'm gonna show you the time of your life
Oh girly girly come and dance with me
Move that naughty body come close to me
Now slide along side yeah baby that's right
I'm gonna show you the time of your life

Quote of the day: yeah, and we'll keep on singing.

A thought from the bath

A THOUGHT FROM THE BATH:

10 top reasons why I regret being born a girl:

1. Once your face resembles the craters on the moon, your face is an insult to the world

2. Sitting with your leg up is distasteful unless you got super hot underwear

3. "Fuck" and "Tmd" is ousted from your vocabulary as it is only "uncivilised ah lians" who say it. A more polite way to expel anger is to go with safe unsatisfying words such as "Oh, drat" or "Oh, no"

4. If you chase a guy, you're labelled as 'despo' but if a guy chases you, he's being a healthy 'hot-blooded male'

5.You have to starve to remain slim and gorgeous - exercising to work off that extra fat will only risk making you another she-Arny in which case, will SAG when you're old

6. It's demoralising when you're FLAT. Even if you're not 'up to size' as a guy, ITS NOT OBVIOUS TO THE PUBLIC! Oh and if you're too big, people seem to forget where your face is and superimpose it on your chest instead.

7.It's not easy to style your hair - a magic touch of gatsby will only make you look like you were caught up in einstein's explosion

8.If you're unlucky and born hairy, too bad girl its either shave or wax ( whoever said that more hair = fertility?!

9.For a week once every month, you'll feel like the reincarnation of Godzilla without the tail but probably with the claws and the sensation like you're 10 months pregnant. Oh, and nobody seems to understand you until you yell it out 'I'M PMSING DAMMIT'

10.You worry when your boobs is going to reach the floor or if there's a random rapist following you everywhere in little dark corners with a little badge that says: "You should have listened to daddy and went home earlier"



Top 10 reasons why I'm glad I'm a girl:

1. Nobody can force me to do anything by saying: "HEY! Do the right thing! BE A WOMAN!"

2. I can dress up as a guy or a girl whenever, wherever I want. (I'd like to see a guy try to wear a skirt in places outside of Scotland HA)

3. I don't have to fear becoming broke cause of V-day cause I'm at the receiving end HAHAHA

4. Even if I'm born to look like the offspring of barney and michael jackson, I can always look like another Jessica Alba with the wonders of makeup! (ok maybe not as gorgeous, but at least pleasant enough to stop people from regurgitating on sidewalks)

5. I can go up to any of my friends and whine about how life sucks without worrying about people calling me a wuss or a gay (sorry sensitive term but I have to use it here in a GUY'S Point of view)

6. If you've lost something or need help, its easier to get help from people!

7. We don't have to worry about getting bashed up in school. We just have to watch out for vicious rumours about our virginity or hate mails that turn up at our table

8. It's possible to make guys do anything you want ( provided you're a really skilled drama-mama vixen)

9. I don't have to go through the gruelling torture of NS

10. Just holler 'I GOT CRAMPS' and the discussion of why you're not doing PE or why you skipped school ends immediately there. No elaboration is needed.

TODAY IS TOTALLY UNPRODUCTIVE!!!

Ranging from:

slacking
slacking
slacking

and

whining about how I should be slacking

and slacking some more

Anyway I found some hilarious bitchy quotes!

1.Come Back When You're Hot
2.I know Right From Wrong... I Just Prefer Wrong
3.When I Want Your Opinion, I'll Remove the Duct Tape
4.Genius by Birth Slacker By Choice
5.You've Been a Bad Girl... Now Go To My Room

personal Quote of the day: I would dance with you - spin, twirl, underneath a twilight sky but life forbid it as there are things closer to my heart

Radio static

Yesterday was like a rollercoaster ride.




It started off with
disappointment : I didn't get into the street jazz item for Dance night.




Then it went on to

relief: At least I got the Reggae item!





and
embarrassment: I didn't know how to do that turning thing that gymnasts and contemporary dancers do so I ended up embarrassing myself in the end..










and after Dance me and Natalie went to shower and I made a call to Astrid which resulted in

anxiety/shock : someone was at the bus stop and I was going to miss the bus which made me do a mad dash across the overhead bridge.





and finally,

awkwardness : conversation was awkward so I turned to Merissa instead






and after alighting from the 132, I decided to be more sociable which turned out to become a

pleasant surprise: the awkwardness soon melted away

but it resulted in a huge amount of

guilt : I've said things that I shouldn't have said.

and the day finally ended with a great sense of NOSTALGIA. ((:

Speaking of nostalgia... I visited Jab's blog the other day and he told me to 'organise another Amp outing' and this prompted me to go to the Amp forums... but what greeted me was horrible. It's the kind of feeling where you've just walked back into your old house after 20 years to find it a total wreck and the memories you created there suddenly seems to be so fragile and precious.

Yeah, that kind of feeling.

It's like, such a pity how our friendships have drifted so far away... and I think back to the days when we all used to be so close and the forums would be so alive and spamming - instead of the forums now which dates the last post to be in january or august last year.

A reassessment of life.

So I guess I should say this now and I hope at least one Amplifyer would come across this:

I love you guys. I really do.

Thank you for all the memorable times we had in 2006 and 2007.

Without you guys, life would have been a nightmare for me

Please continue to stay in touch with me

because I'll always be thinking of you guys

Every minute, everyday.

And if chance be, we'll definitely meet again

Even if its 10 or 20 years from now.

Though memories are only reconstructions of the mind,

you guys will continue to live in my life through them.

So, don't give up on me

cause I'm not giving up on any of you.

Amplify forever ^^

I don't believe it when people say that online friends are not worth anything.

Because friends can start from anywhere

And I can stand up proudly to say that online friends are as good as any other friend for one main reason:

They don't judge you immediately because they don't know how you look or how bad your body language is. They're the people that are embraced by your personality first and irregardless of how troll-ish or weird you are in person,

it doesn't change how much they enjoy having you as a friend.

Quote of the day: That day my heart collapsed without making a sound.

BANG!

HERE I GOOoOoO!
Scream MY LUNGS OUT
To try to get to you
You are my only
My only one...

Fantasies, dreams and aspirations. It's like some fugly kind of barney freak show and I'm the loser in the purple costume. Argghhhh.

I'm on FIRE
And now I think I'm ready to BUST A MOVE
Check it out- ready, steady GO!
- The future freaks me out.

It really does. Its the kind of feeling when you're in a horror movie and the dumbass protagonist has just decided to look under the bed and you're going:
"DONT LOOK! JUST RUN YOU DUMB BITCH!!!"

Or, you know, the kind of feeling where a speeding lorry on turbo is just inches away from smooshing you. We all know how that feels... right?

.. RIGHT?!

And I have fucking history to do.
And the Evil White Pau reads blogs now so I can't say that he's probably beautifying himself with pearl cream in the mirror now.

Argh, 3 cheers for bad timing and for this so-near-yet-so-far feeling.

Quote of the day (or rather, yesterday) : "I'm growing a vagina on my forehead"

A word for the waiting.

A word for the waiting:

A glance, a stare

Your existence girl,

Does not seem to be much of his care.

Waltzing with stress

Pirouettes with an awkward awareness

It's like tango with a mental test

His back

hiding his contempt

Is your favourite sight, girl

And yet,

you wait.

Yearning and hoping,

Yearning and confused,

because yearning is the only thing you can do.

Unfortunately.

A glance, a stare

You play with the days until the impossible

is made possible.

Admist the crowded bus

You blush at touch

With a heightened sense of consciousness

Your looks and his thoughts are of great fuss.

It does not take much to make you happy, girl

All you want is for him to scratch away the dirt

And see underneath,

is a shiny white pearl

A glance, a stare

You walk alone

And its just another day.