Not so morning blues (:

Sometimes a lack of sleep does wonders - like feeling as if you never had any lack of sleep. XD


In any case, I overslept and didn't go for dance like I thought I would. Ah. And there's still Bukit Timah Hill to climb today!

And something else I must do.


White horse By Taylor Swift

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

and much more pricelessness (:

Ampersandman says:
not as hot as me right?

X Jaa, Mata! says:
HAHAHA
I REFUSE TO ANSWER TT
ITS PAST THE PT OF SHAMELESS
LOL

Ampersandman says:
I'm 10 for both, obviously

X Jaa, Mata! says:
sniggers.
add a -ve in front for personality ya =)

Ampersandman says:
eh excuse me
I have a great personality ok

X Jaa, Mata! says:
you're excused. the toilet is that way!
hahahaha!

Ampersandman says:
bleh
you just don't want to admit it

X Jaa, Mata! says:
u have a great personality but
I HAVE THE BEST PERSONALITY WOOT

Ampersandman says:
...

X Jaa, Mata! says:
in your face

Ampersandman says:
I'm dumbfounded by such blatant shamelessness
hahaa

X Jaa, Mata! says:
HAHA

Ampersandman says:
but I like it!
ahhahaha

X Jaa, Mata! says:
uni has taught me much D:
i've surpassed you
HEH.
missing around with shameless ppl has made me into this HAHAHA
*mixing
omg my engrish.
LOL

Ampersandman says:
join the club man


X Jaa, Mata! says:
its so boomz.

Ampersandman says:
totally man

X Jaa, Mata! says:
joining! i think im even in the committee

Ampersandman says:
it shouts ME!

X Jaa, Mata! says:
HAHAHAHA
GO GET A BIGINI!

Ampersandman says:
eww that's shingz

X Jaa, Mata! says:
its totally rad ok




I think 20 years from now (assuming I live that long), I'll be looking back and thinking what an idiot I was.

Just one of those classic moments

On the topic of having lots of awesome friends in Uni:


Ampersandman says:
how on earth does that happen
HAHAHA
you'd think they'd be running in the opposite direction

X Jaa, Mata! says:
WTH LOL
thanks ah D:

Ampersandman says:
sorry, couldn't resist
you know me
hahah

X Jaa, Mata! says:
i know
HAHAHA
i wish i didn't
HAHAHAHA


A priceless moment.

The best thing about best friends: irony

The Dumb Bitch stayed over at my room yesterday and we talked some stuff through. The funny thing is, for my problems she's telling me the same piece of advice that I'm telling her for her problems!

So the conversation will go something like this:


Me: "xxxxxxx"

DB: "Have more faith in yourself! You're really much better than you think you are.... etc"


and later on...


DB: "xxxxxxx"

Me: "wa lao can you have more faith in yourself? Even if you don't have faith in yourself, have faith in the people who have faith in you -LIKE ME!"


See, classic example of how we can give wonderful advice to others but totally epic fail at heeding our own advice (:
Oh, its simply the best thing about having a best friend.


Another thing is that I realise I've been generally very happy in uni (except for the workload. UGH.). Is it possible to be so happy? I think it will take just a little to throw me off tangent on the happiness scale and the prospect of sinking back into what the Dumb Bitch refers to as the JC2 status of 'Depression on legs' is seriously scaring me.

I hope not, in any case.

And on a lighter note, I officially claim your raisins to be MINE! (:

Update

Read my old blog posts from as far as the start of this blog. And I've

stabbed myself accidentally in the gum with my toothpick while eating fruits
cringed cause it hurt
choked on the watermelon juice
stabbed myself again
cursed
choked again.

I really couldn't help myself laughing my ass off! I was so damn childish last time! OMG la. Imagine myself typing stuff like : "wa liew, i wish school wld just burn down den I will have no more sch. YAY! "

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

But looking back, I realised how depressed I was.

And I'm so glad I've broken out of that cycle . (:

P.s: I still got watermelon juice somewhere in my throat. I give up trying to cough it out HAHA

Easily contented

Sitting here after theatre, enjoying awesome duck rice topped with mixed fruits for dessert is one of the best things in life !

the freedom to do anything I like, anytime I like, for how long I like is awesomez (:

Thursdays, my only 'free' day of the week where I end before 4pm.


I like.



And out of sheer boredom, I did a personality test and was quite surprised that it was 75% correct. The scores were pretty close though - about 1 mark difference. So I guess I've got a very confused personality. See, I knew I am schizo HAHAHA!


PICHA OF THE DAY : "Easily Amused"

A little self-appreciation

We made tiramisu today ( or rather, just Cheryl. I sat there and gave spiritual support and helped to eat after that ) and it was awesooomeezzzzz!!!

A bit too sweet but still fantastic :D

AND I HAD ALCHOHOL WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I hate it that my face turns red. It so embarrassing ( no physical pun intended ).

I realise that this blog has been in neglect for way too long. So I shall continue documenting the bitchy moments of my life so that when I die suddenly one day at least people can write an epic story of it HAHAHA ( IN YOUR FACE PALMISTRY-ASTROLOGIST EXPERT ).

Thinking back from today, I never realised how sheltered my life was. I always assumed that I was forced to face many unpleasant situations alone, always fighting a losing battle (which I still am), even sometimes fighting against myself. But in reality, the truth is that I was too self-absorbed.

I read something today that made me sit up real fast and think. The situation felt all too familiar that it was incredibly disturbing (I suppose even Freddy Kruger in a tutu wouldn't be as disturbing).

So.

I think I will stop wallowing like a pig in the mud in self-pity:

Shit happens.
Deal with it.
Stop holding onto the past.


And, I'm so fortunate to have people around me who actually give a damn about me. (yes that includes you, you 5 cent whore. Even though you torture me to no end.... Bitch. ^^)

On a separate note, a lot has been happening in my life now. I'm finally away from home for 5 days out of 7 and I've been thrown into the alien world of university life. Although I wanted to just get through uni and be done with it, I actually made friends who are genuine, surprisingly. I thought university would be a harsh place - even harsher than JC was because of the very nature of its system. But hey, I'm happy now, I've even surprised myself at the size of my social circle, I'm in awesome CCAs and I've got more than AWESOME Lunch/Dinner/Cooking buddies!!

You people know who you are. Don't need to act humble cause none of you are HAHAHAHAHA!

Tsktsk, Shameless.


And, last but not least, I'm really really glad that I got to know an uber awesome friend who never fails to brighten up my day! Thanks for the awesome company and for influencing me with the word awesome HAHA! The parrot will be very proud of you. And the waffle. And the fried rice.

I know I am! :D


P.s: WATER LIMESTONE CAVE EXPLORING + HOTSPRING HERE I COME!

P.s.p.s: I think the lump is growing bigger DD:
If I suddenly die 1 month from now I'll know what happened.

P.s.p.s.p.s: I WANT TO DANCE DAMMIT THIS BACK IS KILLING ME!

P.s.p.s.p.s.p.s: Strobe Lights!

revelation

I know this is very random and I have not blogged in fucking ages but here goes:

I was just thinking about it today because of someone ( roar!!! ) and I realised that I wouldn't be who I am now without my wonderful whore =)

I shudder to think that if you were not there for me during those 2 years, I would still be the all-hating, too-practical, cold-hearted bitch that I became as a result of everything that was happening during that period of time. Your bitchyness really picked me up and made me laugh despite the bitterness I felt. And for that, I just really want to say,

Thank you, Sam.