I AM BACK BITCHES
WOOOOOO!!!! I'M BACK!!
Just an update for you all,
I passed my promotional exams!!!!
But...
My good friends didnt. =(
Audrey from JUDO is quitting cj and going to poly and so is my good friend Choy Nam.
AHHH!!!!
But seriously, I don't know what am I going to do without Choy Nam ... sigh... she's like my life-saver in JC without Jaz or Nicole.... guess next year I'm just going to have to mingle more with the class (though i think my personality clashes with them...gaaaah)
TASKETTE!!! (if spelt correctly)
Argh.. horrible horrible HORRIBLE YEAR... I swear I've been surrounded by so many deaths.. to start the year off it had been Mrs Low's husband. He died while watching his son in a sailing competition. Came out in the papers... and till now I still think mrs low doesn't deserve it... What happened to karma? She's such a nice lady!
Then after that it had been Aunty BB's death... which really sucked because I really liked the lady... HAIZ.. And after that it had been jazreel's grandmothers'....and many more...
You know, it makes me think real hard about the idea of death. Death is like a robber or an unwanted visitor... when you least expect it and at the point where you take that person for granted the most, death will break through all your defences and spirit that person way, leaving you to wallow in your own hatred of slow self-realization as the void in your life gets bigger.. and bigger.
And then, you sit back... and it suddenly comes to you how FRAGILE we all actually are.... It's like, one moment you're here typing this or reading this and then BANG! the next moment, you're dead. I guess, its really haunting. Now, whenever I have spare time to think (aka on the bus, bathing, etc) I get very paranoid that suddenly the building I am in is gonna get bombed or the bus I'm in is going to get into an accident and i'm going to die... then I start to wonder,
"Am I okay dying like this? Dying without saying goodbye? Dying without ever appreciating the ones I love?"
And no, I'm NOT okay. I guess I really fear death.... =(
'what is the best thing in life that has happened to you?'
Someone once asked me that before and I found I could not reply. Reason being is because I under-appreciate my life too much. I can think of a 1001 bad things that have happened but not a single good thing. In fact it took me a long while before I could come up with an answer: I don't know.
Not knowing was probably the best thing. When I overlooked all the bad things, I remembered all the good things.. and there's just so many I can't come up with an answer. My friends, my family, my boy... I guess I'm really lucky.
So, try going around and asking people that question. You'll certainly stun them at first, then you'll get a very interesting answer. Some of the ans I got:
: Being born
: Puberty!
: Being normal
'Death is just a walk in the park' but life is an ADVENTURE =)
Just an update for you all,
I passed my promotional exams!!!!
But...
My good friends didnt. =(
Audrey from JUDO is quitting cj and going to poly and so is my good friend Choy Nam.
AHHH!!!!
But seriously, I don't know what am I going to do without Choy Nam ... sigh... she's like my life-saver in JC without Jaz or Nicole.... guess next year I'm just going to have to mingle more with the class (though i think my personality clashes with them...gaaaah)
TASKETTE!!! (if spelt correctly)
Argh.. horrible horrible HORRIBLE YEAR... I swear I've been surrounded by so many deaths.. to start the year off it had been Mrs Low's husband. He died while watching his son in a sailing competition. Came out in the papers... and till now I still think mrs low doesn't deserve it... What happened to karma? She's such a nice lady!
Then after that it had been Aunty BB's death... which really sucked because I really liked the lady... HAIZ.. And after that it had been jazreel's grandmothers'....and many more...
You know, it makes me think real hard about the idea of death. Death is like a robber or an unwanted visitor... when you least expect it and at the point where you take that person for granted the most, death will break through all your defences and spirit that person way, leaving you to wallow in your own hatred of slow self-realization as the void in your life gets bigger.. and bigger.
And then, you sit back... and it suddenly comes to you how FRAGILE we all actually are.... It's like, one moment you're here typing this or reading this and then BANG! the next moment, you're dead. I guess, its really haunting. Now, whenever I have spare time to think (aka on the bus, bathing, etc) I get very paranoid that suddenly the building I am in is gonna get bombed or the bus I'm in is going to get into an accident and i'm going to die... then I start to wonder,
"Am I okay dying like this? Dying without saying goodbye? Dying without ever appreciating the ones I love?"
And no, I'm NOT okay. I guess I really fear death.... =(
'what is the best thing in life that has happened to you?'
Someone once asked me that before and I found I could not reply. Reason being is because I under-appreciate my life too much. I can think of a 1001 bad things that have happened but not a single good thing. In fact it took me a long while before I could come up with an answer: I don't know.
Not knowing was probably the best thing. When I overlooked all the bad things, I remembered all the good things.. and there's just so many I can't come up with an answer. My friends, my family, my boy... I guess I'm really lucky.
So, try going around and asking people that question. You'll certainly stun them at first, then you'll get a very interesting answer. Some of the ans I got:
: Being born
: Puberty!
: Being normal
'Death is just a walk in the park' but life is an ADVENTURE =)
