Oh god someone SHOOT ME!!!!

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhh i hate this! I hate hate hate hate hate this like hell! Just cause I got astma, I gotta go to my doctor (no not my dad. Another one). AND I HATE IT AMONGST ALL THE THINGS ON EARTH! Obviously, my parents are blind to send me to a BABY AND CHILD CLINIC! oh god!!!! Maybe their maths is sooooo bad that they don't realise I'm born in 1990!!!! YES 1990!!! I'm NOT a kid! You know how humiliating it feels to be around babies and little annoying screaming kids who don't even have an iq of one yet?! And I'm the only freaking teenager there. TEENAGER not KID! Its so bloody embarassing! You know how it feels to stand on that puny little scale and have my weight read as 56kg!? And when they try to measure my height they can't because the metre rule is up to 1.3?!? AND EVERYONE'S STARING AT ME! holy mother of..... I NEED A LIFE HERE! Its so fucking embarassing with every visit! I could even kneel down to beg my parents not to make an appointment! The doctor is fine -he's a really nice chap but what I can't stand is that everyone stares at me as if I have a hormonal growth problem and aged physically by 10 years faster than the others when they think my age is 5. HELLO! IM 15!!!! I seriously want to kill myself now! I'm not some retarded kid who's got hormonal growth problems with some form of birth defect! Cause everyone thinks I'm a kid there! BUT IM NOT! Arghhh and my appointment is due at 11.30am. Great. Its 10.16 am now. I just want some air to breathe. And I'm PERFECTLY FINE! I've stopped wheezin and I can breathe now! God, why's the world so cruel to me.... Everytime I go there I have to bury my head in my hands because I can't take people staring at me! Fuaaaaaa...... nvm...... I'll just bundle my hair up in a cap and wear baggy oversized clothes to make me look kiddish. I'd maybe even wear a paper bag with two holes for my eyes. I'd feel better that way. Honestly. I hate the feeling of people stared at and stared down by people.

Its just fucking humiliating.

Especially last year when I had dengue and that doctor there gave me 2 weeks mc for being hospitalised, I had to give my form teacher an mc from "BABY AND CHILD CLINIC". It's always like this EVERY year when I have bronchitis and an attack. I have to go back, get an mc from there, give my teacher, and the teacher would stare at me and then say out loud in class: "Huh? Baby and child clinic? You're not a child anymore melissa."And I see dozens of heads turn in my direction. I just hate it. I bet if not for their good conscience, they would burst out laughing and I'd go hang myself in the toilet. I hate this. Wait I don't hate it. I loathe it.

Poo its 10.30am now. I got to get breakfast. So annoying. Sigh! Where's my cap.................

arghhhh attack of the airhead stacy!

Oh god I want to kill someone called Stacy! She HUMPED my soft toy bear and my dolphin. Oh GOD! Why do I have such a disgusting p5 cousin? Why? WHY?! someone tell me!!!! I demand an explanation for this! And she's A GIRL DAMMIT! A GIRL! Oh god I'm going to lose my sanity soon! I have a bisexual cousin! who's p5!!! You know what she does??? SHE GRABS PEOPLE'S BOOBS AND SUCKS ON IT! YES! and she smacked and grabbd my butt before and she her just desserts -recalls for a second- heh heh heh... I chased her around with a pen knife! BWAHAHAHA! but that's besides the point... Yeah... and did i tell you? SHE WATCHES BRITNEY SPEARS PORNO! She's only p5 and she's some horny bitch! I mean... whats so entertaining about nude britney spears running around and jiggling her boobs and... i shan't go into description... OH YEAH! AND SHE STARES AT HER BOOBS AND BUTT IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR EVERYDAY! SHE CAN'T WAIT TO GROW THEM! OH GOD! And she peers under people's skirts in public... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! I'd rather have a gay cousin -sniff- one more thing... she loves making noises like those animals in sex. Its bloody disgusting if you ask me. I need a asylum now. Desperately. Please.

A simple update

Yeahs..I'm back again! Been quite a while since my update. Lots of things been happening nowadays. I'll just update you on a short recap:

1. My dog, Cajun, died.
-I ran out of the house
-Got kinda drunk
-[You] ran down from Boon Lay to make sure I was okay
-... and [you] drank my Bicardi!
-[you], you know its bad for you right?
-But thanks anyways...

2. Tension in Cathecism Class.
-I was feeling really sore
-I skipped Cajun's cremation to go church and cathecism. I din wanna see it and I thought cat
would cheer me up.
-Who knows? Cat pissed me off.
-Boys were so bloody bloody bloody noisy.]
-Was on the verge of screaming at them.
-Luckily I didn't.

3.Band Concert.
-I went out with [you], steph and marian
-We went to watch Electra
-People were giving out roses in Orchard.
-I got one[its so pretty!]
-Went to Far East, took neo
-Went to KFC to eat dinner
-We were late for the concert which starts at 7.30
-There was a hilarious rush to get a taxi
-Thank god Jaz saved seats for us
-Band Concert went okay
-Suppose to follow Jaz and company to go and eat supper
-But it was too late and it was already around 9.30pm so i had to get back home
-[you] followed me and walked back with me to the mrt and to AMK mrt.
-Said goodbyes and something quite embarrassing happened -i will not state! lol!-

4.Study Session
-I had A maths CA on monday
-[you] thought me A maths on sunday and saturday
-On sat, I dragged [you] to church[wad an accomplishment! ^^] and went to dog run at Bishan
park
-[You] went back to my house and ate dinner there
-Ploughed through all the horrible maths
-Bought sketch book and started doing something

5.CNY [which is today]
-Had reunion dinner yesterday
-Food was fantastic. Obviously mom cooked
-Bryan and his family were there too
-Today, Nick, Bryan and family came over for lunch
-Dad's sister and her family joined us too
-Food was fantastic again
-Played computer
-Nick went home
-So here I am blogging again....