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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

I so deserve to be shot

Yeah I think maybe its just the movies that i'm starting to watch or maybe its just me, but I'm starting to find children very very disturbing and to find them very evil. There was one movie that I've been watching a few days ago, I can't remember the name but children were portrayed to be EVIL!!!! Here's an evil scene:

Girl:Hey Mister you're shoe laces are untied.
Some dude who was walking by: Oh! (stops to tie laces)

Then a truck by the road so happens to slide and squish him, leaving the "innocent" little girl running off in terror at the sight.

But hey, it was the little girl's fault!

Ah yes, children are evil. I can understand and sympathise to why the SkinnyBoy's dog loves to bark at screaming children when they run past his flat. The poor dog.

Oh yea you wanna know whats the most embarrassing thing that has happened to me on the weekend? Yeah, so like on sunday, I was meticulously picking through my clothes to get up, go to church and go to the SkinnyBoy's house and I so happened to pick my mango shirt. Unfortunately, I didn't realise there was an evil MissYipian in my closet and it has bitten a hole in the front, revealing something blue - my bra. duh. And I freaked out to realise that I've been walking around half the time in that hol-ey shirt. Damn the MissYipian!

Oh if you don't know what that is, I render any evil bug or anything that pesters me to be the clan of the MISSYIPIAN (THUN THUN THUN!!)yes so... the chairperson obviously is SheWhoGoesBootCamp..... so yeahs.... thats my weird theory.. hahaz.... yup. K gotta go! My chinese drama serial is on ><"" BUBBAI!

Monday, May 09, 2005

Love Is When Two People Who Care For Each Other Gets Confused

It's been a really busy weekend and it's killing me but I'm not here to rant about how horrible my day was, how much of a bitch life is being, how annoying the weather is, or how someone stepped on my tail and got clawed.

Maybe another time.

Here's another relfection for you. Yes, I can tell you're gonna groan cause I think too much yup? And the stuff I think about make no sense at all. Cat instincts. Not my fault. Like, why's the earth round? And why doesn't god condemn bitches to hell before they were born? And like, why can't he just zap someone dead with lightning? And why don't we see banshees anymore when someone's gonna die. Ya know, stuff like that. Make no sense. I'll stop before I change this to a nonsensical ranting session about stuff this little cat cannot ever figure out.

Yet.

Okay so I've been thinking why do the SkinnyBoy and I like each other? I mean, I asked him that before and he said that he doesn't know and honestly, I got no idea myself. We're just so different and share no common interest other than going to aracade and playing gunbound. I'm fat he's skinny. I'm tall he's short (hahaaa!!!! I'm gonna be taller than yoouuuu). I'm sickly he's not. I'm emotionless, he's affectionate. I'm cold-hearted, he's warm. My family never go out together or have family gatherings, ever. His family holds it like every week or fortnight. Direct opposites!

Then it hit me.

It was PRECISELY because we were direct opposites that we came to like each other! Ready for some chim-ology? Okay. Listen carefully.

It was BECAUSE we were opposites that we find each other very fascinating, interesting and attractive! If we were similar to each other, it would not be as fascinating as someone who is totally DIFFERENT! Like the properties of a magnet, opposites attract? Remember? If you don't, go back and learn p3 science! It's the craving of wanting to know something new more. For example, you give a child a toy, she'd chide at you and glare if you gave her an old toy but if you gave her a new one which she's never seen before, then she'd jump for joy and maybe stop stealing your neighbour's cookies. Understand? It's really indepth ya know.

Then I thought, "why go into a relationship?" No, its not because I'm some sexually horny skank- that'd be stacy- and its not because I feel insecure or to show off to my friends as being attached because I think it's cool (cough*). I don't know about the SkinnyBoy but this is my reason:

I'm so stressed and isolated in my own life that I feel lonely. Yup the Cat's lonely. Laugh it off if you want. I'm not drowning in self pity but sometimes you just want to distance yourself from the world when you have something that's troubling. You feel that nobody would understand and that everyone suddenly becomes your enemy. It's a bitter feeling of what they call antisocial. And you can't blame antisocial peeps for being that way. It's not that they want to. It's because they have no choice. And it scares me everyday thinking,

"I study to get a good job and live a good life but what if I just suddenly die one day without warning? So won't studying be a waste of time and I should have spent it with someone I really loved or my family?"

I don't want to regret that when I die. I know its a bit far fetched to think about it but its true. It's not that I regret not spending time with my family. It something deeper that everyone goes through on the brink of death. I've almost died 3 times before and the grim reaper's getting pretty annoyed trying to take this stubborn cat down and I can tell you what flashes across your mind when time stops and you hear weird people calling your name to come:

It's fine to die. But it's not to be forgotten. [copyright]

At least with someone that you love, you'd find your life worthwhile and that person would never ever forget you because you were special to him/her and they'd kill the world just to be with you again. Make your life to the fullest and be glad that you've finally found what humans need: love. Not only from your family but from your soul mate as well. I think that's far more important than material things such as money. Even if I were to be a lowly paid person when I'm older, so be it. I'm happy enough if I'm married and comfy. Cause love is worth far more. Much much more that even all the treasures on earth cannot buy.

Love is when two people who care for each other gets confused. [copyright]
Love reminds us:
Never forget your loved ones.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

FatCat's so stressed

gosh. I'm really go stressed! Aaaaaaaa I've been taking so much shit that my shit's become so hard! I was crapping in nick's toilet and I clogged it up! Yeah man! The cat clogged up the Kitty Litter! And Nicky came to the rescue! thun-thun-thun!!!! Hahaha!!! BEHOLD NICK THE CRAP PLUMBER!! WEEEE I LOVE NICKY!!!! AAAAAA!!!!! His toilet sucks man. Yeahs. Sucks. haha!
Quote nicky: "I still cannot forget the scene of the horrible big bomb"

Yeah it was like world war 3 again. Vs me and the toilet. Muahahaha who won? OF COS I DID! with the alliance of nicky the plumber!!! YEAH MAN!!!! WHOOHOOO!!! FUGGLYYY!!!!!!!

I hate crapping.