revelations

I WATCHED STEP UP 2!!!!!
okay, the plot sucked but the dancing wasn't too bad. I still thinking the prequel pawned, though.

And comments from Sam today-

«∞Θ §am Θ∞» 4 Minutes says:
OMG U WHORE

And a testimonial from him that really brightened up my day:

You know you're becoming Mel when you...

1.Fall asleep while talking to someone.

2.Write a 1000 word essay on one page.

3.Censor the wrong word.

4.Fall down the stairs on Christmas Day.

5.Looks out the window every 3 seconds

You know you're becoming Mel when you...

1.Fall asleep while someone is talking to you face to face

2.Go for lectures only needing one piece of paper

3.Get locked in class more than once by the same person

4.Fall down the stairs on Christmas Day

5.Look out the left window every 5 seconds

Aw, what would I do without you?

Note: this is a rhetorical question.

(probably puke less)

Quote of the day: "Melissa loves bad boys" <- yes, astrid.

Emolicious.

EMOLICIOUS! TAKUYA YOU'RE SO AWESOME ^^
: these are the english lyrics of my blog song.

Colours of the Heart - Uverworld

That day, my heart collapsed without making a sound.
Even if I scream as I break, these unerasable memories
And this darkness will flow into my eyes.
I still can’t see these colors, so I’ll still feel depressed tomorrow.

I searched endlessly for the day when we could understand each other.
I’ll keep on living now just so that I can lose it.
It’s impossible to be alone, even if I embrace this solitude.
If you turn on the lights…
I will shine toward the light.

“These feelings we keep wishing for will one day change color”
You told that to the person who can keep going on inside my heart.
Just about everything is inevitable inside these colors that were born.
One more time, I am able to paint tomorrow with my hands.

In that place from some time, I’ll have to get used to losing things.
These things I’ve taken will all slip through my fingers.
Before these tears dry up, will those words I wanted to hear
Be used now to save someone?
It’s all your fate. You gonna do that.

“If this light becomes bright, the darkness will become deep too.”
Even if we realized that, there is nothing to fear.
Just about everything is in the end of my heart.
If I open my eyes, I’ll be able to once again see these colors that were born.

The breath of sadness;
That is what makes these colors we’ve searched for run
Without raising a sound.

“These feelings we keep wishing for will one day change color”
You told that to the person who can keep going on inside my heart.
Just about everything is inevitable inside these colors that were born.
One more time, the fingertips of this light will shine on me.

Just drawing...Colors in light and darkness
And take it...Colors in light and darkness
Now, with these hands,
I will once again paint all of these unreachable, kind colors.

see the video too!!! They look so awesome when they jam!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WhzMgw8I_Oo

colours of the world

I didn't go school todaaayyyyy!!!

*celebrates by running around in circles with my hands up and screaming my head off*

Anyways, my blog is collecting dust due to my sheer laziness so I shall clear some spider webs.

A highlight of yesterday:
I spent 2 hours at the CJ bus stop and at the bus stop outside the Crab Shack. And, I don't really know why. I just sat there and waited, and waited, and waited. And you know, I realised that if you just took a step back and became an observer of the world, you'd notice a lot of interesting things: take, for example, the number of people we pass by in our daily lives. It's cool. Just listen to the events of yesterday:

5.30pm: Saw Qing in school. He asked if I was taking 132 I said I'm not cause I'm staying back to study so he said ok and he left.

5.40pm: Met Jitjit and Xavier in the canteen.

6.20pm: Left school. Missed 2 132 buses.

6.40pm: Met Luo Er at the bus stop. She left soon after

6.45pm: Just shortly after Luo Er left, I met Qing again at the bus stop. Apparently he was staying back to watch th volleyball match (YEAH WE WON SRJC). He asked me if I would take the 132 with him but I said I'll wait till 7.

6.54pm: 132 came. Qing left.

7.01pm: 132 came, i boarded.

7.20pm: Got off at the bus stop outside crab shack.

2 163 buses and 2 855 buses passed.

7.40pm: I saw Luo Er on the 163 bus.

7.50pm: 10 minutes later, I saw Patrick and Angelina on the next 163.

8.00pm: I boarded the next 163.

So if you think about it, its almost as if on every bus, there's someone we're bound to meet. Then, I thought about it. If everyone was travelling one step in front of another, it only takes 1 step back to bump into someone.

And I suddenly realised that Singapore really is that small....its comforting somehow.

And the events the day before yesterday:

3.00pm: school ended

4.00: Finished econs project with Zen and Jason and bumped into Jit in the library while printing it out.

Until 4.45pm: Talked to jit because I wanted to avoid MrHighway who had pe till 4pm.

5.00pm: Left school after bumping into Wilson.

5.10pm: I felt a tap on the shoulder and turned around only to see MrHighway.I freaked.

So, if I had left school immediately after econs, I would have avoided MrHighway but in avoiding that person I've only bumped into him. ITS SO WEIRD.

But somehow, I'm left laughing at myself and feeling happy.

Oh! Oh! And you gain SO MANY insights in pretending to be a guy online. Honestly!!! I just went onto friendster today and I get about 5 messages from despo girls asking me to see their body LOL HAHAHAHAHAH!!! And when I logged onto imeem, I got something similar to that ZOMG. Being a guy is so hilarious.

Colourful, indeed. ^^

Quote of the day (yesterday's yesterday) : Stop trying too hard little lady, Old Man Fate's always got something up his sleeve

Quote of the day (yesterday) : Just get up and go.

Quote of the day today: oo, you got me lusting.

P.s: ZOMG. BICEPS.<3
Double p.s: Takuya is the sexiest sht ever. (apart from ... )

It's time to wake up?

"What time did you wake up"

"I woke up at one"

"Why'd you sleep so long"

wtf. I'm sick (not physically) give me a break...

You expect me to wake up at normal school time 6am and study history?

"What are you doing now"

"I'm on the computer"

"Why are you on the computer"

"I'm playing"

"Why are you playing? You should be amending your history essay. You know its a piece of crap so why aren't you amending it"

Get off my back, please. Unless you really expect me to cut open my stomach and show you all the guts I have left. Pun intended.

"We had this talk before and you're letting relationships get in your way"

"I only went out on Saturday..."

"Yeah you went out the whole day knowing you had history to do"

"I spent the rest of the week researching can't I have a break?"

and by the way.. I would have stayed out until later if not for the fact that I decided to come home and watch mr woodcock with you and you weren't home anyway like you said you would and you made me wait for you till 8.30pm before I called you and asked if you're coming home for dinner.

Which you weren't.

Thanks a lot. And about the relationships, I'm not you. I don't want to end up unhappy like you are. I don't want my kids to have to go through the same shit I went through. So I'm holding onto whatever little I've got and you can't take that away from me.

And you still tell me that I don't spend enough time with you. Wanna know why? Cause everytime I do you'll take the opportunity to turn it around and suan me. And I don't really enjoy being suaned 24/7. I'm not as generous.

Somehow, someway, you always have this innate ability to make the hardest times in my life worse than it already is.

.

.

.

You never ever fail to hang up on me. Every single time.

Quote of the day: I wanna migrate to Alaska and live among the polar bears.

H-okay.

I pretty much settled some stuff today. It's been really trying but I managed to, with a lot of help from...wherever mental support and help comes from.

I called up 'that person' today or rather, she called me up. Heh, I was right. She really did read my blog. Either I should kick myself really hard now or thank myself for getting somewhere somehow. Whatever it is, I said whatever I needed to say and so did she. It feels a little bit better to trash things out entirely but then you'll find out the real truth behind the facade you've always been seeing. And either way, its always not pleasant.

'Fuck you too, you're right about everything'

Save the pleasantries for the pleasant peasants.

Cause we're all poor people in the end. Grovelling in this shithole and never knowing who's got their boot on the back of your head until you actually turn on your back and accept defeat. And in the meantime, just grit your teeth and be pleasant. Death makes a joke out of all of us.

Girl, it doesn't hurt. It's just fucking disturbing ya?
Don't do stuff like that to people.
At least we can cut the pretentiousness.

And so I guess I won't be seeing you around in school anymore. I think that suits the both of us.

Anyway, on a more pleasant side of things, I was discussing a very interesting topic with THEBOY today. of cheesecakes, brownies and tiramisu I say? You'd get those or I'll turn you into a personal cream puff with lace from that expensive long white gown-to-be ^^

Blablabla: Pking is fun.

Quote of the day: of cheesecakes, brownies and tiramisu!

P.s: Its weird going on msn and seeing two totally different people with THE SAME NICKNAME. When patrick pm-ed me I almost called him Luo er.
Their nickname: When you come to the end of the rope, tie a knot and hang on.

Gosh, I dont want to imagine starfish with luo er's hairstyle LOL! As Sam would say, its so drag and would earn the honourary title of Galaxiaaaa! LMAO.

stab me a heartbreak with history

Mental breakdown mental breakdown now physically!

It seems no matter how fucking hard I try for history I'll never get the results I want. I don't know how the fuck am I going to do my history assignment she gave me cause I'll probably do the EXACT SAME THING I did in my exam! Yes, I'll take a bow and you can draw LOSER on my ass and hang me up on a dart board while you practice your aim with darts or tomatoes! You know what? I don't think I'll pass history. EVER. Even though I study the hardest for it, I can never seem to get it.

Well, FUCK YOU.

Every lecture having to be reminded of what a big loser ass peice of crap I am thats so lowly I ain't even deserving the title of 'human', every word coming out of your mouth that painfully makes me wonder why I even chose JC in the first place and every strained breathe I release after unconsciously holding it makes me wonder why I'm still here!!!!

FINE. I'LL ADMIT IT. I'M NOT A FUCKING GLORIOUS STUDENT WITH OH-SO-NEAT UNIFORM, SPARKLING GRADES, GOD-LIKE BEHAVIOUR OR A DESERVING ONE AT THAT. I'M JUST A LAME-ASS RETARD THAT'S WEARING A SCHOOL UNIFORM AND DROWNING IN STRESS EVERY SINGLE DAY WHILE LIVING IN DREAD FOR EVERY SINGLE HOUR THAT PASSES.

I FAIL AS A STUDENT.
I PROCLAIM IT NOW.

I don't fucking care if one of you (yes, YOU 'PEOPLE') fucking reads this and fucking thinks: "mel's just drowning in self pity" but YET pretend to care and be my friend the next day in school with a BIIIGG HUUUGEE WAXED-ON SMILE (with your pure white pearlie teeth beaming) on your perfect rosy face as you go 'OH, HI MEL!'

Fuck you.
I'm naive but I'm not fucking blind. I know you don't see me as a friend. You think I'm pathetic and you're so much better, that I'm some hopeless piece of crap that never 'really made it'. But guess what? You never knew me at all. All those stuff I told you, well, that's only superficial stuff. And for a note to take, I was never trying to be what you are (a no-good plastic barbie). I'm just trying to find a side of me that DIED the moment I entered JC - apart from the only time when I managed to find myself again in Orientation2.

I've been fucking breaking down mentally EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. AFTER. SCHOOL. Why the fuck you think I game so much??? Haven't you figured out already that its a fucking form of escapism for me? If not for online games, I'll probably be in woodbridge already from forming a dent in my wall! It's not fucking healthy but fuck it anyway cause even if its an hour of false paradise, so be it.

So fine, I've finally reached breaking point and I find myself crying as I do history. And the best part is: I DON'T EVEN FEEL SAD. The tears just fucking come down but I feel NO EMOTION inside. It's like someone just pressed the remote control for me, down the button that says "cry". And I can sit there and still laugh at myself for being so stupid.

Bitter laughter.

I'm so sick of putting on a fake front. I'm so sick of pretending to be strong. What's so wrong with being a wuss and actually crying my heart out? I don't even fucking remember the last time my voice quivered or changed when I cried. I just see my fucking stoic face in the fucking mirror and see the tears come down before I feel embarrassed and wipe them quickly away. The last time I've ever come close to even crying out was last year in june but that was because something very close to my heart was pulled out, stabbed many times, sewn up, and thrown back in. Before that, I can't even REMEMBER.

I'm so sick of this. And I know I'm whining. So sue me. You don't have to put up with it. I'd even feel better if you slapped me now. Or rammed my head against the wall and smooshed my brain.

Hey jaz, magical saturdays remember? Saturdays are the only days I actually forget all this shittyness. But the moment the magic is over, its gloom for the rest of the week.

still breaking down over and over again. How does it feel?

Just fantastic.

Well, FUCK YOU HISTORY I'll fucking complete you to-fucking-morrow! I'm just gonna fucking sleep!!!!!

One more bet for me!

Because a thread of fate is what determines us. +WOOO I WON!! SUCKERS!!! says:
maybe u wont feel it now

Because a thread of fate is what determines us. +WOOO I WON!! SUCKERS!!! says:
but maybe later u will ?

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
lol fat chance--

Because a thread of fate is what determines us. +WOOO I WON!! SUCKERS!!! says:
i'll give u 6 more years ^^

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
--

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
too me love is bullshit

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
doesnt exist

Because a thread of fate is what determines us. +WOOO I WON!! SUCKERS!!! says:
7 years, tops.

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
haha ok ok

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
i tell u wad if i happen to fall in love or wadever within 7 years time...il let u say i told u so...and il give u a hug--

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
and all tht mushy shit eww..

Because a thread of fate is what determines us. +WOOO I WON!! SUCKERS!!! says:
OKAY ^^

Because a thread of fate is what determines us. +WOOO I WON!! SUCKERS!!! says:
u say one ar!

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
ya 7 years

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
see wad happens

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
but if i dun...il say i told u so...

Because a thread of fate is what determines us. +WOOO I WON!! SUCKERS!!! says:
ok

<][>(ReGenesis)<][> GOD....du hast meish... says:
and jus smile-- heartlessly..


Ohh euuugiiiin~~ the bet is on! U better remember it!

Bittersweet

I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED TODAAAYYY!!!!!

1. I ran (or rather, cabbed because SOMEONE forgot to wake me up and if I didn't cab he'd have to leave for school before I even reach his doorstep!) over to THEBOY's house today to wake him up and to have breakfast with him ^^

2. I completed Harvest Moon : Back to Nature for Girls today!!!!! Wooo!!!!! I married Gray the blacksmith in the end cause he's so sweet and cute!! The ending is really cute too...aaaaah!!!! I wanna live in such a utopia!!! *gushes like some stupid anime fan girl*

3. I completed Pheonix Wright: Trials and Tribulations today!!!! Wa lao, for those who own a DSLite, I HIGHLY recommend this game!!! It's sooooooo gooooooooddddd!!! The last trial was really tough! I nearly cracked my brain over it! But, it was worth it cause the last trial exposed all the contradictions and the mysteries in the earlier trials and I suddenly realised they're all INTER-LINKED! To whoever came up with the plot, I want to worship you.

4. I WON THE MEGA LOVE COMPETITION!!!! Soooo thats: 4 GV tickets, 2 audition t-shirts, 2 wristbands, 2 diaries and 2 dog tags for me FREEEE!!!! Actually I did it more for the GV tickets cause tickets are soooo expensive nowadays and I figured if I can win this by just producing a simple poem (which I like to compose, anyway), might as well. But best of all: THE FEELING OF WINNING that bitch that flamed my post as unoriginal. HA, EAT DIRT BITCH! You flame my poem but yet you COPY THE ENDING...see, you got your just desserts! *victory dance*

5. I got a call from asiasoft ( not too sure but I highly suspect its them cause I only use my ign of Guppy for asiasoft games) and I supposedly have a job interview?? What the Fuck?? But anyway, if its really true and its not a sham, then, I MIGHT BE A GM IN THE MAKING~~~ WOO!

So yeah, my day was extremely unproductive as you can see. I need to get off my butt and start work soon.

Work due:
-2 essays for narinder (ugh)
-UN SBQ (double ugh)
-Econs shit (bllaaaaaaaahhh)

And I have tomorrow all booked thanks to history night and dance. Joy. I'm screwed.

Quote of the day: Take all that hypocrasy and shove it where the sun don't shine.
p.s: level 35 in cabal! *grins*

EEk.

I think I think too much. (oh wow, thesis statement)

I know this is really random but I just spent 5 minutes in a FREEZING COLD shower and didn't realise it until the bath was over. And that was because the moment I turned on the tap, I went into 'autopilot' mode while my mind went into 'contemplative, detached from body' mode.

And now I feel really stupid. Because:

1) I didn't even know I was turning the water to the coldest
2) And in the first place, I FORGOT to turn on the heater
3) And it's so freaking cold outside cause its been storming the whole day.

And even when I was done, I was too cold to move so the only thing I could do was to grab the towel around me really tightly and freak out mentally with every possible profanity in the Singaporean vocabulary.

Briiiiilliant. Story of my life.

Today, I've come to the conclusion that in life, some things are unattainable.

No matter how hard you try, how tough the struggle is, how badly you want it, it will never materialise. So, I'm going to give up. If it was meant to be, it will slowly come to me because chasing it would only make the chasm bigger and the run, harder.

So old man fate, I'm passing the baton to you. I'm tired of chasing things I'm just not good enough for. As for myself, I'll invest my energy into other things that I MIGHT be able to get. It's going to take a hell of a lot of work, but I'll have to force myself to get there. Not like I have much of a choice unless I drop to poly now...

In the face of a boulder thats coming right at you from miles away, the only thing u can do is dig. And pray, you better dig a big enough hole to stop it from running you over.

So, let's try smiling for starters.

Quote of the day: You must be chinese because chinese people are selfish (well, screw you too you racist bmaasltaayrd. I've never heard a more insensitive comment on a server chat that is 75% chinese)

P.s: the lead singer of UVERworld is 100% eye candy.
Their songs carry so much EMOTION. DANG.

The one who forgot.

We once promised each other that we'll never grow up.

I think you have but I have not. I realise inwardly, I'm still a kid. Sure, I've learnt the manipulations of life and I've had my fair share of hardships and responsibilities but every night as I lie down and invite the Sandman to sprinkle sand into my eyes, I escape into dreams.

And almost every dream is the same: A dystopia that I can ironically find my own small utopia in. It's always about finding answers.

From the past. It's weird but if I ever dream about anything rational, (things that exclude ninjas, wizards, killing racoons or becoming a potato, etc etc) I dream about the past. It's like, I'm somehow trapped in it, reliving it every night and getting a cold slap of reality when I awake.

Talk about palimpsest...

And in each, I see either you or you there. Sometimes, both. An overlapping memory? Possible.

I'm still a kid. I still want to be serenaded from my window with a guitar or a saxophone, run in the rain, receive flowers even if it isn't any special occassion, sit on the monkey bars as we hold hands and talk about life, throw popcorn at random people in the cinema, whine whenever I want, eat candy and chocolates all day without having to worry whether I'll grow fat or not, eat paper just to see how it tastes like, grab your hand and drag you anywhere, constantly demand for your attention, talk to anyone irregardless of gender and age without implicating any consquences, hang out at our houses without any underlying motive, roll in the sand, lie on the grass and believe in love at first sight... etc.

To be an adult. To be sexually promiscuous? No thanks. I'm so sick of this 'hey-honey-whats-your-name?-oh-amanda-thats-a-real-sweet-name-whao-and-you're-a-virgo-too?-sweet-I-think-we're-totally-fated-cause-I'm-a-virgo-too-so-lets-have-sex-and-dump-each-other-tomorrow' trend that's going around SG nowadays...

I want to hold your hand like there's no tomorrow without being labelled slut/despo and kiss you with nothing but innocence. I don't want to kiss you out of lust.

So to that, I'm gonna stay young. I'm never gonna grow old no matter how society forces me to 'mature'. Who knows? Maybe we'll be childish enough to elope or create our own personal utopia for those few hours that are worth it.

Don't force me to grow up.

Quote of the day: Khan-not make it.
Observation of the day: Short skirts grab A LOT of attention =/
P.s: I had yummy italian today!!!!

A tinge of slackiness

I AM LEVEL 25 IN CABAL WAHAHAHAHA!!

And I am finally not alone!! I met this guy today who taught me levelling techniques and we were talking about very random things (e.g. Girls in Japan are STRONG, how to seduce beetles and how to show off your muscle to get girls). Hmmm yea. I spy with my little keyboard and mouse that I will have my very first cabal gaming buddy =D

It sucks to train by yourself sometimes. Mobs don't make very good company cause half the time they want to kill you. The only time you ever get to interact with someone is to shout:

"CB DON'T KS LA"

Wahahahahaaha!!

Anyway tomorrow lucky me is going to have ITALIAN!!! Yayyy!!!

Oh yeah, before I go, I PASSED A LEVEL CHINESE WOOOTSSS!!! I CAN KISS CHINESE GOODBYE WAHAHAHAA!!! FOREVER!!!!! Yahhooo!!!

Bada-papapa- I'm lovin' it~

Quote of the day: He asked me if I needed help LOL
P.s: Been very grumpy and my face is like a mine field(thanks to the wrath of the China facil lady). Not a very good combination =(

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Lit paper today was crap.

It was crappier than crap can get.

If I were to flush my lit paper down the toilet bowl it would clog it up more than crap can clog it up.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

Aiya Common Tests have become so draggy it's become a bo-chup-and-sleep session.
FOR EXAMPLE, jason had to kick luo er's chair to wake her up and I stoned for at least 15 minutes after Glascow said YOU MAY BEGIN.

Really, really have no mood to do it and my body and mind are being extremely stubborn about it. I swear my mind is really dead. Its been thinking of extremely nonsensical things. Want to know what? Like this morning. I had a really weird dream.

I dreamt there was 3rd Orientation, I was facil again and I was in charge of the IG21 people again (oh the horror =P ). For some reason, we were in the LT playing games and a RACOON -YES, A RACOON, crawled out of someone's bag and proceeded to eat up our lunch of sandwiches. Firstly, I have no idea why a racoon would be in anyone's bag. Secondly, I don't see why I'm carrying a HUGE plate of sandwiches around. It's not rational. Then, I tried to shoo away the stupid racoon but it kept coming back so I resorted to picking it up by its tail and slamming it against the wall.

Guess what? Didn't work.

So I ended up doing all sorts of shit to it (including jumping up and down on it) during the WHOLE DURATION of my dream and it STILL didn't die. Yeah, 8 hours of brain activity trying to kill a racoon. That's real smart. I should get an award for it.

And that damn racoon-killing process keeps repeating in my brain.

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Okay so let's be all lit-ish. Maybe the racoon is someone I really dislike in my life, someone who is obstructing me from getting my life's worth of benefits(sandwiches) and the reason why it came out of a bag (you know, cat out of the bag? Just that its racoon) symbolises something that I've not really noticed or probably neglected that has turned against me. Maybe the racoon is indestructible because it might be my pessimistic thinking of life, my irresponsibility and bo-chup-ness. Mentality cannot be harmed physically. Ugh. Whatever. Screw that metaphor shit.

Econs tomorrow. I got a strong feeling I'm gonna fail cause I just spent the previous few hours going for facial (damn that scary rough china woman who almost broke my nose), playing cabal and watching om shanti om(DAMN GOOD BOLLYWOOD MOVIE).

P.s: Lvl 12 on CABAL WOOOO!!
Quote of the day: I don't need to push you away with two hands. I can do it with ONE. (yes Samuel)

daydreams and CABAL

Before I say anything, I MUST post a description of someone. This is NOT written by me but it cracked me up like mad:

that dominatrix-with-flabby-arms-rolling-my-eyes-at-your-sheer-stupidity-while-gargling-my-mouth-with-perrier-and-having-sex-with-my-husband-almost-every-day

LOL!!

You're a genius and this just proves that Lit paper drives us all cuckoo, heh.

Yeah, I'm 6 feet deep in shit.

I was supposed to study lit today (WAS) but my compulsive urge to try out the new open beta cabal SEA stretched my 1hour 'AIYA, TRY ONLY' period to well, now. 12midnight.

Sheeeet.

I'm not loving common tests anymore!!!

So, tomorrow I must get up early and STARDY! MUST MUST!!! I must leave all my other thoughts outside the door and MUG. Or at least, I hope. Sigh.

Quote of the day: A blast from the past -Your green bicycle at the gate.

p.s: We only exist in dreams.

Bliss is a place on earth.

I LOVE EXAMS!!!!!

I LOVE COMMON TESTS!!!!

CALL ME MAD

BUT OH, I REALLY DO!!!!

Maths today was simple - did the pure maths questions then went to slack. Oh, but before that I was fiddling and cursing on the GC and I wrote a letter to the PinkPrawn (:

I miss you babe!

But don't worry, I ain't alone in failing. Just sitting diagonally opposite me, Ming Xuan also gave up HAHA! He was looking around in boredom then we both caught each other's look and we both gave each other the "Wa Cannot Make It la" and the "Fail la who gives a shit" look. LOL It was super amusing!!!!

Oh, and Jason fell off his chair while sleeping HAHAHA!!!

Gp was okay too. I think I managed to concentrate and I have a pretty good feeling about it. Luckily I dropped KI too cause the passage was on identity. What the fuck. If I took that I'm sure to DIE.

AAHHHHH I LOVE COMMON TESTS !!!

I love Sam too!!! After CTs we went to look for his missing red bottle at the office then at LT1. Wa lao, LT1 was SCARY okay. Nobody was in LT1 so it was all dark and freaky! After a fruitless search, we went out of the LT by the other door (I love you for recommending that to me Sam) and we bumped into Banana Phone Man who gave us the 'what are the two of you doing in the dark and deserted LT...' look. I almost died on the spot.

Of amusement.

Oh and my heat wave was walking behind us as me and Sam were walking to the bus stop. Stupid boy. Sam kept threatening me by saying he'll shout out ' ********, MEL THINKS YOU'RE -" and then he said if SW was walking behind too ( cause we saw him stalking around the foyer before we left, looking for god knows who. I can only amuse myself ) he would shout "OH, SW YOU TOO!!!"

Damn you Sam. Damn you. You're the bitchiest piece of bitch I've ever met in my life but because of that, I love you (:

And coincidences are scary. The 132 bus came so I had to run for it and guess who was running just behind me? Yeah. And he's a rugsack person too. DANG. I swear he's copying my style man! After that, kind of stoned on 132 while talking with Corrine, then Mandy. Then he got off at the bus stop opposite the Thomson Prata house and walked off towards the Prata shop. SO that was that, I told myself. Phew.




It was then I realised a 163 bus zoomed right past the 163 and I was like, SHIT IM GONNA MISS IT! After bulldozing past a stupid group of mayflower guys who were standing RIGHT AT THE EXIT OF THE BUS BUT NOT ALIGHTING, I managed to chase after the bus and got on.

Guess what? Yeah, I don't even need to spell it out. Turns out he wasn't walking towards the prata shop. He was walking to the 163 behind. Arggh. I sat down, pretending not to see him and guess what? I met Sara's aunty again for the 4th time in 2 days. She got on the bus. So, I went over to talk to her.


And the 3 of us alighted with him on the phone (as usual. I swear he's gonna grow up to be a business man. Everytime I bump into him he's on the phone. I think he's gonna be a stock broker or something..). After talking to aunty, I decided to talk to him about the paper today and disturbed him about his height. SHORTEEYYYEEE. WAHAHAHA.


I asked him if he was still so short because he kept looking under girls' skirts. He looked embarrassed and said no la. So I asked him if it was because he were trying to look under trousers/pants. He didn't get it.


Give the boy a prize.


But yeah, I love Common Tests. (:


Ultimate bliss.


Quote of the day: *me talking*
Sam: bla bla bla I don't care (LOL SAM U BITCH)


And I shall have another donut !!!

A second pinch of salt for the wound

The first love is the deepest.
The first cut is the most painful.

Went to study with Sam today. It was pretty productive =)
Met up with Yi Jiang shortly after cause we met him at the library.
It's probably the first time I've ever talked to him. Usually I see him hanging out with Dinesh and my class at the grand stand but I've never really struck up conversation.

Ah well, He's a nice dude. Just well, not so good in luck.
Don't worry! Your luck will turn!!!

On the way home, I met up with Sara's maid and started talking to her.
Then, almost by chance, Sara and her family came home and aunty gave me a big hug ^^

Awwww, she's so sweet! She used to call me honey bear last time cause I'm ALWAYS wearing this bear outfit HAHA! Ah well. Then me and Sara spent the next one hour sitting outside her house and talking about life generally... in particular.... *boys*HAHA!

But yeah, I learnt interesting stuff ;)

Like I promised, I shall totally devote one whole day to you Sara! Then we can gossip and swoon like little girls in the past when we ogled at the park footballers HAHA!!! I miss you !!

The kids of tomorrow don't need today. When they live on the sins of yesterday.

Tomorrow is GP and Maths Common Test. I am screwed. But, I shall work my butt off to do well.. except for maths! Who cares about maths!!!! Muahahahaha!

Am I still looking for escape? I don't know. But the music continues to haunt and the wound is still burning from

A second pinch of salt.

Quote of the day: "BLLLAAHHHH"
Sam, you're so loved. haha!

Mirror, mirror

I hate mirrors. Officially. Everytime I look into the mirror I feel like clawing that arglay person staring back at me.

Gaaah.

Common Tests are next week and I haven't gotten off my fat butt to do anything about it. I'm annoyed there's common tests but I'm more annoyed at myself for not doing anything about it and even more annoyed for getting annoyed and YET not doing anything.

Grrrahhhh..

I am an angry person.

I SHALL PERSERVERE IN STUDIES TOMORROW WITH SISTER!!! (:

Quote of the day: A re-evaluating of self.

P.s: Disappearing sightings.