illusion

I know that relationships are a messy business. I know that the moment you enter any relationship, you immediately lose a friendship. Whether it works out or not, you still do lose it. I understand that even clearer today. But despite understanding it, it is not as easy to accept it.

Why is it always a question of dishing out the pain or taking in the pain? Why is the balance in-between just so hard to achieve? I think at this point of time, everything that I have been trying to fight against, to disprove, has backfired. Is this really the truth in the end? I guess it seems to be so.

If that is the case, I reject everything that I once believed in.